everything is embarrassing

   today, you are so far from me. not only a couples miles. maybe as far as hundred of it with an extraordinary messaging capability with my sucks phone. but its not a trouble even a bit isnt it. i just feel good you had a smooth flight today, a bit concerned cause yesterday there is a plane accident in a local news tv, actually had a same direction as your flight.

   today i went to your south. i saw our indecisive moment. dont you know. i realize that we were stand here as a quite kid with a brave childish roots growing up together fighting it till the problems solved. lots of indecisive statement from me and you at there. and you know what? i really glad with it. at least this relationship has solving sort of problems that we find. glad we grow and still fight for each other. but i know its quite embarrassing sometimes. 

   sky ferreira with her song "everything is embarassing" is guiding me to wrote this words. uhm not only her, but also this your sweet scene which has triggering me for write this.

   its not a big problems if i were a girl and too girly for write it down. it doesnt matter. i growing up to adapting this situation. i need this adaptive lesson, yeah its for my future. oh i remember, i found out some of my ex's letter at my desk. hahaha maybe one day i will bought it to you (if you're ready for it maybe). that letter drive me to bring somekind of new style. 

everything is embarrassing - sky ferreira 

yeah embarrassing, like this notes.