KEEP IT CLEAN.

a good song from camera obscura. the best part is from the lyric. i stopped shuffling song, and itunes drops me on this song. now its playing on repeat, wishing this song could fill this empty blank on this universal dream postal services and it might buff me from this shit situation. 

talk about this song is simply talk about love.

talk about love

lets talk about mine.

im on a silly situation, which is i got punk'd by my own karma. past few years, i've met a girl that i interested with her. later by days we're on relationship. but its only work for 2 months. some peoples said "i was cheated her". but i dunno, i though so. i just cant love her. i've tried my best but it gone more wrong.

nowadays, karma's already came. i work alone for this relationship. shes, i mean my girl now kind of a narcistic person that cant even help me to fight this relation. she's not helping me or i am being such an annoying person whos begging more and more from her. for an example: im the one whos post her in my own blog (i mean my relationship with her), none of her blog, twitter, fb, anything else posted mine. she's posted me, but its only wrote just like we're such a friends not even a happy friends. 

"Hella Fella" hahaha. this words is the words she picked for our very first photos which is uploaded to her blog. fuck it, all i know about her is nothingness. i dont know her. not a misterious but kind of annoying person. a very centering person. kind of blackhole girl.

the second post is our sketch photos, a sketch on our arm. and still talk about nothing. just a distorted of nothing.

third post, her doodle. it shows our character there. me on the left side holding her shoulder and she's on the right side hiding her hand....... sounds like a hidden message.

fourth post is her doodle for my graduation day. "Big CONGRATULATIONS to d’bigbossy Dhidhot Bima Pradiphda S.T." just it, no love words or something else. im a bigbosshit.

and the last post for me, is our sketch which is made by us later before we're on a relationship. she's only typed "chasing session". haahahahahah

thats all

You're the one pretending to be licking stamps
All alone in a room following lines on maps
It's clear you don't want me here

-camera obscura-

but i must be strong. because i love her.

i dont want to be part of your scene, all i want is to be yours.